angin malam and i feel lonely for a while .....



tiba-tiba aku terasa seolah olah aku kehilangan dia untuk selamanya . seolah-olah there is no chance for me and him anymore .. no more laughing , no more warming , no more caring , no more jealous , no more mad , no more revenge , and no more fighting .. only tears are hearing and feeling .. seolah - olah terpisah jasad untuk selamanya . Tuhan , jangan diambil nyawanya .. kalau boleh , gantikan nyawanya dengan hamba Mu ini .. walau ape pun berlaku , aku tak nak kau terluka , kecewa , sakit .. biarkan aku yang menanggung segala derita itu . even is not you ... i touched ! like you are the one who's gonna leave me and them .. please , don't go away ... do it for your family and not me .. it almost 1.30 a.m .. aku tak tahu ape yg aku tgh rasakan sekarang . tersentap !






dan aku tahu apa yg kau rasakan .. i can imagine you face right now .. dan aku teringat saat muka tu berlalu ..  dengan muka yg tak nak bercakap dgn orang .. muka yg penuh dgn penyesalan .. cukup ! aku tak nak egt lagi muka tu .. muka yg buat aku rasa bersalah sebab bergaduh dgn kau .



why am so care about you ? all whatever i do is just only keep thinking of you ! just you , you , you and you !
am trying to throw you away from my mind , but i couldn't . i keep deny about you and past , but it still come back . please tell me on how to get rid of it .. am tired playing with this stupid game alone ! if only i just have a very perfect time to talk , surely i talk by put aside my shyness .. yet , i can't ...



dear Allah , only You understand what's really happening between us .. only You know all our stories ..







p/s : sometimes i give up on this . but surely it will kill me slowly lol .. give me strength to face everyone . i will stay as always ... cool , that's all i can show .. in deep , who knows ?


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