Nur Ellina . .

"hey , you are so cute . can i know your name ? btw , i would like to be your friend ?"
"hey , thanx for that dear , just call me syera . my pleasure to accept u"

starting from that , we'd become close friend without everyone notice . we always keep in touch every sec , doesn't care what season . we enjoy ourlife happily about a months . suddenly , u ask who is my partner ? i answered without know your point "i dun have anyone coz of some reason . everything starts through our mcj

lin - syera , , can i ask you something ?
me - yes , what is it ?
lin - emm . i feel shy to you . . (she got clown on her cheek)
me - hey , ape u ni ? menakotkan i lahhh . hahah
lin - eh , u suke Mr.Bean kan ?
me - a'ahh . i suke gilerrr . kenapa ?
lin - na ta kalo i bw u jmpe dye ?
me - eh , betol ke ? na na na . (excited) . wait ,,, i guess that is not your point . u already know what i like kan ? can u just straight to the point ?
lin - what ? i betol betol la . i ta de motif la gurl . huhu
me - oke . eh , i na tdo . esok kite mcj lagi . bye bye . love u so much lin .

it almost a year , i feel so calmly with you lin . i feel very happy than boys !! you make everything for me . make my days brighten when i'm down . idk what happenin between us . day by day , i was only thinking of you . i wonder if u miss me like i miss u ?? one day , u make a confess that i really never never thought !

lin - knock knock !! boleh masuk line awk ta ?
me - msuk msuk . pintu ta kunci . mangge je . haha . sape tu ?
lin - saye dtg na mjual ni . cik na beli ?
me - eh , awk ta nmpk ke sign kat luar tu ? balik balik .
lin - cik saye dtg bukan na jual barang barang ta berkualiti . branded ni . rugii oo .
me - branded ke ta . bukan point sye . awk jual ape ? minyak ek ?
lin - x lah cik . saye jual hati .
me- la , hati sape lak awk curi ? knapa saye kne beli ?
lin - saye ta curik , tp saye robek hati saye . jadi saye na serahkan pade cik . mgkin cik boleh jge .
me - ouh , npe ta cakap awal awal ? silekan masuk ye ?
lin - hahaha . mengada la u nihh . smpai hati usik i mcm tu skali .
me - well , u know me . ada apa ni ? u tau ta skarang pukul berapa u mcj i ?
lin - huhu , skarang jam menunjukkan pukul 0345 a.m . maksudnye ?
me - waktu sye tido tahu ? kenpa la u ta reti tdo awal ? apa u buat ?
lin - i made some that mess she . hahaha
me - oh ye ? sapekah gerangan ?
lin - u lahh . haha . hey , i na terus trang ni . sblum u tdo i na bgtaw sesuatu .
me - ewah ewah . i plak ye ? haha . okeoke . ckpla ape ?
lin - I SUKE YOU !!
me - i pun suke u . ape masalahnye ?
lin - no !! i mean i really like you . boleh ta kalo u jadi pengk i ? jge i ? i really need somebody to care for me
me - lin , have u out of ur mind ? we can't be like that  sygs .
lin - this is the way for me . i na lupekan lelaki . u pun samekan ? u kecewa dgn laki kan ?
pleas accept me .
me - actually , i pun suke u sbnrnye . okoke . i accept u . but just between us !
lin - thanx syera ! bersyukur sgt . really thanx for being my lover .

after i accept u , i feel everything becomes more better for mylife . kitorang pun jalani kehidupan as couple yg paling dilaknat tuhan . PENGKID doe . sape yg na trime ?!  until one day a few months before i lost everything . u become so wierd ! whats wrong with u ? everything i do , u will object it . i felt very mad at u until i accuse u such nonsense word ! i'm sory . coz , idk what is goin on . . the last moment that i ever had with you :

me - lin , ape yg ta kene ni ? i betul betul ta faham . can we solve it nicely ?
lin - nothings wrong . i je yg ta betul . sorry making u mad .
me - cube cerita dgn i ? pleas kalo u sygkan i .
lin - syera , i na tahu yg i sntiasa syg u . kalo bleyh , i ta na berpisah dgn u .
me - i tahu lah bby . setiap saat u cakap mcm tu . i da tahu even u ta cakap pun .
lin - u ni , sempat buar kelakar kan ? haha . thats why i suke u . u suke lawak even situation tegang .
me - haha . i kan suke lawak , smile ..
lin - kalo i pergy dari u . u na buat apa ?
me - i bunuh diri . boleh ta ? u na pergy mana ?
lin - bongokk la u niyh ! damn punya jwpan !
me - amboi , cantik ayat u tu ? na i kasar juga ? da lame i ta kasar dgn u .
lin - leyh gak . jum kasar kasar jap keding !
me - hoihoi , kalo da gendut tu , buat style gendut . huhu .
lin - hahah . i pasti rndukan saat kite berkasar kan ?
me - ape u cakap ni ?
lin - nothing . i syg u . really . .

until one day . i menangis sepuas puasnya ! smpai hati u tnggal i lin ? kenapa u pergy London ? u buat apa kat sana ? i sedih tahu ta ? tibe tibe 01 10 09 , u balik Malaysia . u mcj i . u wish mcm na gila bufday i . full inbox gara gara mcj u tu . u katakan u pergy London coz daddy u ada kerja , kok ye pun , bgtaw la . ni ta , tnggal je . bengap betul u ni . hahaha .

lin - syera , i need to tell u something . i dun have much time .
me - ape pulak kali ni ? u ni misteri betul . (aku ta syak apa apa)
lin - jnji dgn i yg lepas ni , i na u bah perangai . i ta na kite terjerumus dlm dosa lagi . tolong tnggalkan dosa tu . i takot . but pleas jgn buang i dari hidup u . just get rid of our things that u have .
me - oke i jnji  tp i ta faham mksud u .
lin - i got brain cancer ! i dun have much time .

betapa terkejutnye aku saat tu , patot la selama ni , ko buat perangai . aku ta sangka ! sungguh ta sangka . alasan ko pergy London , ko tipu aku . ayh ko bw ko pergy berubat kat sana . kenapa kau buat aku cm ni ?
Ya Allah mulianya hati ko lin . ko ta na tgk aku terseksa khlangan ko .

31 Okt 2009 . mummy u call i cakap u dah ta de . i siap melawak dgn mama u . i egtkan dye main main . rupa rupanya betul u da tak da . i dgr dye menangis . i dgr dye mnjerit mcm org gila . kesian mama u . tega nya hati u buat mama mcm tu ?! i betul betul minta maaf coz ta dapat ziarah u . i ta na hadapi u . luckily , your parents memahami i . i tahu . i mmber yerbaik yg pnah u ada . u ta pnah complain fasal i . kalo ada pun , u tegur jgn pcye lelaki . i imagine , mcm mane kubur u ? batu nisan ? dalam ta dorg gali ? mama u ckap . u smpat taubat . rupenye , mama tahu fasal kite ek ? u ni , mengada bgtaw buat apa ? tp i lagy bersyukur u sempat mengucap . i akhiri semuanya dgn Al - Fatihah utk u . u tahu ta , today 31 Okt 2010 , cukup 1 tahun u tnggalkan i . tp i akn tetap rndu u . i akan jalankan amanat u . tp i ta jnji utk bersama lelaki bile da smpai masa nya . eh , da 2.30 pagi ni . i mengantuk doe . u jgn lupe bce doa tido oke . huhuhu .
*aku da start melalut ar ni . elllina da ta de . ape lagi yg aku na ? dah la . OUT !

2 comments:

  1. takziah erh..
    bukan senang kita nak hadapi bila kehilangan orang yang tersayang dan rapat. tapi life must move on. kekalkan saja dia di hati anda.

    al-fatihah-
    semoga arwah dicucuri rahmat dan ditempatkan di kalangan orang yang beriman.. :)

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  2. baby... tragisnya cter you dan ellina... so sad... sanggup dye happy kn you even dye ade brain cancer kn ? ellina tu btul2 ur bestie babe... bkan sng na crik kn kwan like that... al-fatihah i panjatkn doa buat arwah ellina. amin ya rabbal alamin ya Allah.. semoga dye di cucuri rahmat . jazakkallah .

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